A person
learning in public.

The background

It started fifteen years ago, on a forum for a Counter-Strike 1.6 server. Not the game itself. The forum had a design subforum and I ended up there, started participating, opened Photoshop for the first time to make things for a community that actually cared about how things looked. Nothing serious. Nothing with a plan behind it. Just making things because it was enjoyable and the people were there.

Then engineering faculty. Then IT. Support and infrastructure, then more complex problems, then the kind of work where people stop asking you to fix things and start asking you to tell them what's broken before it breaks. A decade of that. A good salary and a career that read well on paper. But the design interest never actually left. It just got very quiet.

A few years ago it got loud again. I started noticing it everywhere, in the tools I reached for, the problems I lingered on, the way I thought about interfaces and systems when nobody was asking me to. I ignored it for a while longer because it felt impractical, like a thing from another version of my life. Then I stopped ignoring it.

This blog is what happened after I stopped ignoring it.

What gets written here

Three things, more or less:

Design.Visual thinking, craft, and the slow process of learning to see differently. What it feels like to move from IT into design, not as a success story told in hindsight, but as it is happening.

Psychology.Not as an expert, I am not one. But I notice things about how I behave, how I make decisions, how I resist and adapt and talk myself out of things I want. I write those observations down.

Career change.What it actually looks like to be in the middle of one. Still working, still figuring it out, still not sure how it ends. The uncertainty, the small wins, the doubt, the occasional clarity.